Christmas Lights and being Crushed by The Hand Of God…
I spent Saturday putting up Christmas lights on my neighbors house and on mine. It was a lot of work and I was exhausted by the end of it.
By then end though, we had lights.
Sunday was a light day in which I didn’t do much. I wanted to get to church, but Helen was out of it and I just felt like playing WoW instead.
Went to sleep Sunday night thinking guy things; power, sex, money, “worldly things”, and I dreamed. I was standing in a shower, shouting my guy things, Yelling them at the World and God. I was naked with the water running and pooling around my feet. I felt the water had reached my ankles and felt a huge crushing pressure, pushing me down. I knew that God had seen my thoughts and my desires. I was being crushed and trying to escape I pushed open the door to my shower. The water spilled out into “my bedroom”. The Hand of God continued to crush me and I tried to escape back into the shower. (I was also afraid of getting the floor any more wet). I was pushed down into the water, I was crying and struggling trying to get up. I had no leverage and had no way to push back and I knew I was defeated. The force holding me down became a pounding, hammering away at me. I woke up panting and out of breath. Shaking Slightly I tried to sit up and the cat who was sitting on me wouldn’t move, but continued to look at me and push up and down with her paws, purring the entire time.
