Tuesday, August 28, 2007

no PHP_AUTH_USER, well crap!

Just a little programming problem I'm dealing with at work. It involves statefulness in the HTTP server and trying to script it in PHP. Sucks. but fixable.

I was kinda down yesterday afternoon, I needed a little down time and didn't get it. To many people just hanging out around the house. I'm reserving Thursday night as a family night. Just us, hanging out watching TV or whatever. I'm looking forward to it.

I started reading St. Augustine's Confessions last night. I had tried to get into it before and I remember now why I had stopped. He writes (or at least the translation from Latin) in big flowery sentences that are never complete sentences but long series' of rhetorical questions or even statements. It seems very stream-of-concisousness and it loses me at times, but or the most part I am getting it. It is better than my usual brain-candy (Conan, Sci-Fi, or Fantasy books) and I'm enjoying the challenge.

So took a break to do a little work. I haven't done many renderings recently, mainly haven't had the time, between tutoring, guitar, warcraft, and around the house chores, I've had no time. It's kinda sucked. It really sucks when I can't even get to my own desk because of it all. I'm tired of moving crap and eager for it all to be done!

Speaking of moving Helen & I helped Shawn with more moving on Sat. It was a lot of work and a lot of fun at the same time. We were cutting up and just having a good time while lugging tons of furniture (ok not tons, but a good amount) down stairs and into and out of cars trucks and vehicles. It was fun but on Sunday we were both too exhausted to really do anything more. I tried more household re-arranging but I was too low on energy to do much.

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Sunday, April 08, 2007

Mrs. Norris died yesterday...

Graphic Post Do NOT read if you are squeamish...



Pooks has some very nice pictures ofMrs. Norris on her blog. Mrs. Norris passed away Saturday night.























This is probably the worst Saturday I've had in a while, both good things and bad. Pooks took off in the morning to go to a bridal shower. While she was gone I began cleaning up around the house. We still have tons of stuff in boxes and things not in the right places. I began by completely clearing out one room moving several heavy pieces of furniture around and trying to stage everything so the stuff from the third room could be moved across the house and into the first room. It was a lot of work and even with a short break for TV watching (http://www2.blogger.com/img/gl.link.gif). So the house was a complete mess when a lady came by to adopt Babykins. She is a short-tailed tiger cat and daughter to Mrs. Norris. The lady, Amy, came by with her daughter and a Vet tech to check her out. Babykins objected greatly to being picked up and so while curious about the visitors didn't let us grab her to put into the cat carrier. So they took off for lunch and pooks came home. We got Babykins crated and gave her over to her new owners. Amy's daughter looked very happy about getting a new kitten.

Pooks was upset about it, and I felt bad that we had to give her away. It was a good thing though b/c the older cats kept beating her up for being the littlest. So we did some more cleaning and laid down for a while. We settled down to watch tv and play wow. While watching tv we heard one of the cats coughing, something you hear often with 6 cats and didn't think much of it. Pooks went to go check on which-ever kittie it was that had been coughing. She immediately called for me and began crying, Mrs. Norris had fallen over and obviously was in distress. She was limp when I picked her, I began to try a Heimlich maneuver on her, thinking something was blocking her airway. I was holding her head down in my arms trying to force whatever out of her throat. She began convulsing in my arms twisting and writhing and pooping. It sounded like air was coming out of her body and I kept trying to force whatever out of her. Pooks ran and got her keys and purse and I Mrs. Norris and ran to get my wallet and we got into the car hoping to get to the emergency vet. Pooks was completely broken up and trying to drive us. I was cradling Mrs. Norris in my arms when I realized that I couldn't feel her heartbeat. I held her tightly and only felt the blood of my own arms pushing against her. It was horrible. I told Pooks that she was dead. She cried and cried. We hadn't made it more than three blocks when it happened.

I had her pull over, concerned for her trying to drive and at the same time wanting to be double sure. I listened for anything coming from her limp frame. She was quiet and didn't move or react to anything I did. Her toungue was hanging out of her mouth, and had turned blue. I was surprised and how she didn't move or even try to react to me moving her around. I expected the normal cat movements and resistance to anyone trying to get them to do anything, but she did nothing. Pooks cried and cried. Blood and drool were coming out of her mouth. We drove home. We went into the backyard and Pooks got a sheet to hold her in. I began to dig a grave for her. Roots and weeds blocked me from going deeply. My back began to tense up and strain at the extra work. I had already put it through it's paces earlier to day moving furniture and boxes. I pushed through and dug the grave. Pooks was sitting holding Mrs. Norris crying. She gave me her to put in. I placed her in the grave curled up in a ball like she did when she was sleeping. She looked peaceful and content. Both of us crying we began to cover up the grave. Pooks put the dirt back on and I pulled out a large block to cover the body up. I placed another one to be a headstone and Pooks finished pulling the dirt over the grave. We hugged cried and said a prayer thanking God for a wonderful cat.

We went back inside, Mrs. Norris had apparently coughed up a large ball of hair and food. I think that somehow it or a part of it had gotten stuck in her throat. We cleaned up the mess and then snuggled up on the couch. I comforted Pooks while she grieved. This was a double whammy b/c Mrs. Norris was the mother of Babykins. I did my best to give Pooks a chance to grieve and be sad while being comforted. I reassured her that it wasn't her fault and the there was not much we could have done. It wasn't more than five minutes between when we first heard the coughing and when we found her. Hollow words though, it is hard to comfort anyone after the loss of a loved one, I did my best to be there for her though. It was about 10pm now. I couldn't believe how early it was then. It felt like forever had been happening all day long.

We moved around with useless energy and settled in my office. Pooks slept on the bean-bag chair while I played WoW. She got up around midnight and She began posting some pictures of Mrs. Norris. We went to bed around 1am and night was strung with bad dreams of nameless things storming my subconscious.

We also had the windows open b/c it was a nice day but it turned cold over night. So we got woken up a couple of times by the dogs barking first at something in the garbage cans then at each other. We're watching Pooks' moms dog. It joined in the commotion. I got up at 5:30 made coffee and went right back to bed.

Woke up early and went to the 7am sunrise service for Easter Sunday. "Welcome Happy Morning" is one of my favorite hymns. It was hard with getting so little good sleep but at the same time I didn't want to sleep anymore b/c it had already been so unsettling. We walked up to Dave's Diner for breakfast with Mom & Dad. We came back home and planted flowers on Mrs. Norris grave.

Today I plan to do taxes (we owe) and maybe finish a little bit of cleaning. There so much stuff to do that it's distressing and after Saturday, hard to get into.

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

Long ago... or something like that.

Had a great evening with mom and dad last night. We roasted hot dogs and relaxed by the firepit. Pooks and I are getting annoyed with moving stuff. It's just gotten disheartening recently.

I got a call from an old friend from G'ville on Thursday too. It was good to talk with her. Hopefully she'll be able to make it up to the house warming in Feb. I miss a lot of my Gainesville friends. Of course not getting involved around here like I did down there hasn't helped. It makes me thing of how really long it's been since I've talked with any of them. I do keep tabs on things, Earl's leaving the church, Bob died, IHN keeps helping families. I may miss the superbowl party for the homeless this year. Makes me kinda melancholy. I know though that a lot of the people and things I knew from there are gone. The memories are of happy times long ago. I've moved, but not necessarily moved on.

It's late and I don't want to sleep. I'm rapidly succumbing to the sandman though.

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Friday, December 15, 2006

Bringing Down the BanHammer!

Bringing Down the BanHammer!

Did some early morning maintenance on the dreamlibrary.org site. Various spammers were posting adds for stupid stuff in one of the forums. Even though it was the "OffTopic" forum, they still aren't allowed. So I'd grab the IP add it to the banned list and then delete the post. It's comforting to know that at least the spammers know where the site is. I tell myself it's a sign of getting famous.

I'm about half way done with packing. I finished most of the living room last night. Hopefully I can get the computer room and bedroom done today. I am still trying to keep things somewhat oragnized so that's helping.

It's been a stressful week for me and pooks too. She's having problems and having to move doesn't make it any easier.

I did get to do some online shopping last night, that was kinda cool. I actually like shopping for Christmas presents. I'm done with Pooks (I think) so i still need something for Maggie & the rest of the family. It's a little too close to try to mail-order things, so I think I'm stuck with going to the store. Super Target here I come!! (and World Market, walmart, books-a-million, bed bath & beyond infinity (My God, It's full of Towels!) But I'm saving that fun for next week.

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

Stress leading up to moving.... and potentially something better.

Moving sucks, two tons of crap and not enough dumpsters.

lol.

I'm getting some packing done but I feel like it's going too slowly. I need to make a goodwill run and give a bunch of stuff to them. I've still got a lot of crap in the computer room to both junk and pack. I can't tell if I have more stuff than when I moved back to Jax or less. I know I filled a 17' truck moving up here, but not I'm wondering what it was full of... I think I've been a little good at throwning stuff away this time and not holding on to so many things.

The good part is that I'm throwing off some barnacles that weigh me down. I'm moving to a new house with a woman I love and a daughter that's adorable. I will be able to refresh myself with new things. I won't be stuck trying to keep up the old things. This is the stuff I love, new possibilities and potentials and everything both scary and wonderful that comes with it.

Pooks is going through some stuff now and it's hard to advise her. It deals with old friends and that always makes it harder.

We all had a stressful day yesterday, so before bed we got together and had a family prayer time. It felt good to just sit together and let out our worries and frustrations and then to remember the things we were thankful for.

I've been stuck w/o my linux box and everything is getting packed away so I haven't had a lot of time to do things computer wise. :-( I do think I want to setup the prime number database again. It's the kind of cool project I enjoy doing that makes no good sense. :-)

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